Dear everyone or no one who somehow ended up here and is now reading this text. Today has been a shit day. I’ve been on semi auto-pilot most of the day and the other part floating like I’m in some kind of limbo.

A little over a month ago, the person I’ve loved the most in my life journey… Left.

Since then… I’ve tried everything I possibly can to heal. And what started as a way to understand the behavior of a man who hurt my soul… turned into questioning myself, facing my mirrors, and fighting my own monsters.

Healing properly isn’t pretty. It’s a horrible, painful rollercoaster that breaks you open in places you didn’t even imagine you needed to look inside.

Nothing romantic or filled with self-love Instagram quotes.. which by the way, I hate and find incredibly annoying. Because being broken is not always about not knowing how to love oneself.. it’s about learning how to love.

They say the amount of pain you feel has to do with the amount of love you gave… what a fucking unfair thing to feel. Like, “Hey, you’re incredibly capable of loving, so here… this is going to hurt like nothing before. Good luck!”

By no means do I have any idea what I’m doing. If I’m honest, it was due to the encouragement of my beautiful chosen family that I decided to start documenting my journey somewhere other than my computer.

And while I was crying naked on my shower floor, a few days after my heart was broken, filled with so much pain, rage, and total despair.. I begged.

To whatever you want to call it. A celestial being. The universe. God...

and my soul answered…

Keep going… I got you.

S..

Keep

Going

I Got U

There are stages and phases we move through and like the moon, they help us cleanse, heal, and renew.

There will be no timeline, no calendar, no fixed dates. Just words. Just honesty. Just the messy truth of being human....